Thursday, March 1, 2012

The Blood in the Rainbow



After everything was done I wasn't sure what to do with the last piece of paper in the whole wide world.

So I began to write this.

But I didn't know what I wanted to write
So I started writing about how I used up every last sheet of paper.

A blank canvas.
It's how everything starts.

And I wasn't sure what to put on that either...
So I tucked my knees so deep into my body
And went to the corner and painted everything I could get my hands on:
Red.
Red because it’s the first color of the rainbow. And what is left besides the rainbow when black and white takes everything?

Red walls
Red cups
Red dresses
Red faces
Red
Canvas.

And when I ran out of red, I began to etch in everything that wasn't destroyed in:
Cream.
Cream because it reminded me of the folds below my belly-button,
and how much I wanted to straighten out the crinkles in the skin but I couldn't because I’m just a girl who goes into the corner and tucks her knees in so tight to her body she begins to paint her world red and cream.

Cream ceiling.
Cream floor.
Cream lights.
Cream
Canvas edges.

And then, when I ran out of cream I began to outline my work in green,
Because it was the last hue in my eyes
before I started shedding blue tears and black mascara.
Green because it was the color of the grass next to the other side that was shriveled up like a vein.
Green because it was the last color the rainbow bleeds before Black and White took that from me too.
And I tasted the rainbows blood as it fell from the grey clouds.
And it melted on my lips as if it belonged there.

The truth? The truth is that I painted everything red because it was the first color to bleed from the rainbow, and I wanted to bleed rainbows that I drain mine onto every last paper in the world.
But my veins were too small to fit all the goodness of a rainbow in them.
But I kept trying.

So with the last piece of paper in the whole wide world,
I wanted to write this.
Not because I'm sorry for what I did.
Because I wrote this in my rainbow blood.

1 comment: